i wonder when is the time where i can talk to my group of friends freely.

for now do i even have one? sure i do but it's only maybe for a 10 minutes - 1 hour talk?

and then next day their off with their own groupies.

it's like i don't know where i belong.

i just wish for once i want to know where i belong.

To be able to talk to the person, and the person who talks the same way back.

It's not like a one time thing. It truly makes me sad..

breakdown.

i had a major break down yesterday.

Don't ask me why , well obviously no one will because nobody reads this blog.

So, i was browsing through all the OLD CD's yes nobody use CD's this days but WHAT THE HECK!?

I found my legally blonde CD! So i decided to watch it which made me feel a whole lot better!

I suppose i have to get back to my old life back.

It was one mistake , if you can't take that much then you're not worth my time.

FML.

i really should forget this shit and move on right?

thank you so much. NOT

it's weird how you're excited for something and it doesn't turn out something that you want it too.

Happy+trouble = depressed.

you know what, i really wanted to watch it with you but looks like it's not going to happen.

i would be lying if i say i don't miss you.

Thoughts.

i wonder if that's how you treat every other girl.

i'm suspicious.

can i really trust you?

when it ends, it starts all over again.

why can't a find a good word to write?
what's my fcking problem?
i have so many questions to be answered.

i love it when my phone goes "DING" .

my head is terribly empty ):

PATHETIC

it's weird how when i'm sitting down doing nothing i have so many things going

through my head and ideas of what to write pops up but when i sit in front of the computer

my mind just goes BLANK!

it's so PATHETIC.

I really should have to habit of bringing a small notepad along anywhere i go so i can jot down my ideas but im just PURE LAZY.

i really hate that word.

i know i should really stop and i will.

Lately, i've been talking "bedroom tours" on youtube to get some idea for my room.

i really need a new closet obviously im not going to get one.

But i went to IKEA today and got a funky' Bedspread which i totally ADORE

I also saw this really awesome bed that i wanted to much and it only cost like

Rm500 + which is quiet reasonable because lots of the normal queen size bed i see around

cost like a 1000 + .

"you got me there"

unforgetable moment.

A moment that i had never felt in my life time.

Someday i would like to feel it again.

your presence beside me, made my stomach flipped.

i felt over the top.

Even though it all happened in silence.

someday, maybe i'll get my chance.

for now i'll just look from afar and dream.